Amor vincit omnia ... what am I? Pollyanna!?

Now. Where can I get a pattern for dunagrees that's free?...or as close to free as I can get?

My inner hippie demands dungarees! NOW! WANT ONE! WITH A FLOWER ON THE FRONT! ... or a heart... or a bee. ... or something ...

Yes I'm feeling bratty.

Ok so. I've got a project in mind. Namely THIS one ->http://max-california.deviantart.com/art/Underbust-Pinafore-Tutorial-117568345 < -- because I LOVE pinafore dresses (ok so I'm gonna drop the underbust thing down to waist because I look about three in underbust stuff...despite the size of my bust. But anyway). So I was trawling round trying to have a look at some pinny dresses that are a bit, well, different...so far (after four days) I've found ONE that I like - and yes I've lost the rutting link...

...

I want to rant about how unimaginative ppl are but 1) that's not fair and 2) my track record aint exactly bizarre *sighs* I just want something different! That doesnt make me look like a gorram toddler!

I'm so humped! *facepalmtearsathair*

Ok. I'm done now.

Sriously? I'll probably just shut the heck up and get on with it. The one the original lady created (see above link) was just lovely so *shrugs* I'll shut up and get on with it *sighs*

Veggie burger 1

Tin of kidney beans (or mixed beans)
1 grated carrot
1/2 onion, sliced
3 spuds, grated
Spring onions/corgette (wonder if I could
get away with
aubergine?)
1 cup of sweetcorn
Salt and pepper
butter for frying

(breadcrumbs
egg
flour
-
just for breaded ones)

mash beans with a fork, mush in the rest
of the incredients. Shape the mush into
burgers-

(roll in egg, then the flour, then egg, then
the breadcrumbs...only for breadcrumbed
burgers!)

-fry the burgers each side for about 3
minutes or until done ^_^

Ignoring the fact, for a split second, that I miss Daniel so much right now that my SKIN hurts (is that normal?)

M'kay. So after yesterday whereupon I made - apple and raspberry crumble, honey and spice lemon drizzle cake, coconut drop cookies (that weren't coconut at ALL because mom's allergic but tastes a lot like 'em cos mom likes the taste), chicken enchilladas with spicy salsa and custard - all from scratch I'm feeling very domestic-y goddess and totally in control of the kitchen which RAWKS!...totally ignoring the fact that I've been walking round all day so I DIDN'T look up a decent recipie for veggie burgers so we're just having wedges and pasties for tea...I sux XD

ANYWAY! Because of this I have currently abandoned most of my projects (some of which I am so SO SO SO close to finishing) in order to stitch a 'betty crocker' style apron complete with semi-nekkid pirate chick (it's gotta be done folks, it just does). I'm also going to make forays into the world of cosmetics as SOMEONE bought me a book on how to make my own...be afraid people. Be very afraid. How does blueberry muffin lip gloss sound to you?

So basically. I will update soon, just not yet ;)

Much luff people, I'm thinking (and praying) about all of you'z :)
xXx

P.s anyone else heard 'Baby it's cold outside' sung by Zooey Deschanel and Leon RedBone? Jazz but I love that song!...yes, yes I know it's from 'Elf' - it's one of my favourite movies ok?! I LIKE THE CHEEEZE!!! Anyone who eats pasta AND chocolate sauce on the same plate is ok in my books.

So I'm back.

M'kay

So belated happy halloween to y'all. Lovin' you still you wonderful peeple (you know who you are ). I made pumpkin pasties (a la harry potter) and they rawk my world.

Secondly, my mama is doing really REALLY well Herseptin's nearly finished (or at least this batch)...it ends in July I think.

Thirdly, my campagin against the evils of flab and wobbly bits is going ludicrously well. I've lost an inch from my waist and a whole stone all over (and I've only been going three weeks! Wahey!) So yeah. I'm feeling insanely smug right now.

On the arty side...*sighs* I'm STILL working on Star's b-day prezzie, cos I suck at what I'm doing atm. Frizz's shoes are NEARLY finished, I'll get to work on Gems just as soon as. Uh, my embroidery has gone out of the window, I've nearly finished my (knitted o_O) vest and...nope, not working on any sewing projects but I AM designing the gothic lolita dress from hell...in my mind o_O

so yeah,
peace y'all

Why isn't there a 'triumphant' mood button?

Stuff I like this month
:+ Daniel
+Yiruma - first love - the river flows within you.
+ Frost
+ Being totally toasty warm
+ Knitting
+ Loosing weight - and excersise (who would have thunk?!)
+ My birfday (coming up!)
+ Gothic lolita clothing (shut up, it's the ruffles)
+Lackadaisy

Stuff I don't like:
+ Uncertainty about my future.
+ Missing Daniel so much I HURT
+ The fact that I haven't lost all my weight RIGHT NOW
+ Fireworks
+ Writers god damn block <_<

( Comic strip )

Ok so I think this is actually the first comic strip that I've done that I think is actually funny. Her face in the fifth panel is HI-larious (as Jayne would say)

Ps. Totally into gothic lolita atm, the sweeter the better...its the FRILLS man! They totally sucked me in!

Ok so Halloween RAWKED. We didn't go out (which, I'm slightly depressed to find, was a minor relief...is this a sign of 'growing up'?). We watched YESMAN (the jim carey one I've been dying to see for AGES) drank an horrendous amount of alcohol (I am now a BIG fan of alexander brandies) and listened to this awesome band I never knew even existed called. ... Jerry Jablonski and the electric band...seriously, they RAWK! The song 'Give me love'...that's SO me (actually I think it's just called 'love' but that line in particular has an awesome resonance...look ma, I'm hungover and I can still remember big words) plus we talked, quite deeply, girlie chat - which I've never really been into but there's something about Bex that drags it out of me XD

Now I think we're going to check out the rest of Union Square (new mall that's opened in Aberdeen - bout time really) and I'm going to try and decide whether or not I want a pattern that I've seen in a shop called 'hobbycraft' ... considering that the money mom gave me is technically not mine but it is o_O God I don't know. I might give mum a call and see whats what :s

At about 4am last night (bex was snorin' I was WIDE awake) I wanted to hold Daniels hand so much that it hurt. I can't begin to detail exactly how much I miss him right now...it's only eleven days (I think) until I get to see him again (OFOR NINE WHOLE DAYS BABEY! YEAH!!!) but still... :(

OH AND HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO FRIZZ!!!

I currently weigh 17st, my waist measurement it 41.5"...I'm only 5'7"

I'm OFFICIALLY pissed off, on a diet and doing a brand new excercise regime at the gym. I am GOING to loose this weight no matter WHAT

Stuff I like this month
:+ Daniel
+ Tim Minchin's Peace anthem for Palestine.
+ Fog first thing in the morning
+ sewing stuff
+ The smell of Halloween
+ My pumpkind
+ HALLOWEEN YAY!
+ Costumes

Stuff I don't like:
+ Being ill
+ Uncertainty about my future.
+ Missing Daniel so much I HURT
+ The way my head is right now.
+ The fact that Gem and Nan are only here for another week and a half
and, as always.
+ Writers god damn block <_<

Ok so I know no-one really reads this thing so I feel perfectly safe in stating that:-

I want to be a stepford wife.

Without the robotics.

Seriously. I know feminism did a lot for women and everything - with the vote, being able to work etc - but what about women like me? Women who want nothing more than to be ultra feminine, clean, neat, tidy, know ettiquette backwards and forwards, be polite, genteel, care for a husband (heaven forbid! Shouldn't I be hanged for saying such blasphemous things?!), cook, sew, raise children (yes, yes I know) and do other homely things.

Of course I still want my shop but, well, the idea of staying at home, keeping the house clean, occupying myself with nice, feminine activities...

Was it Dita Von Teese who said the last thing for feminists to liberate has been femininity? It seems to me like anyone who expresses such wishes is instantly derided by the 'god-you're-practically-prehistoric' group...

But then. I doubt it'll ever happen *Sighs*

I SWEAR TO GOD I AM ABOUT TO THROW THE WORLD BIGGEST HISSY FLIPPING FIT...WITH NO SWEARING (because the bf doesn't like swearing so i gotta stop really *facepalm* plus it's limiting my vocabulary which is just not groovy at ALL)

But seriously.

HOW much money do pattern companies make over pinafore/apron patterns?! Is it SO much to ask that they have at least ONE pinafore/apron pattern that hasn't had every single last scrap of femininity RIPPED from it?! Is it so very, very difficult to ask for it free?! YES I have no money and YES it'd probably be a lot easier if I just bought the darn patten because YES it's super cheap but that's not the point is it!?! I thought the internet was supposed to be a free for all! *cries*

Ok. I'm calm now.

And this is, obviously, completely ignoring the fact that I'm SUPPOSED to be working on my steampunk stuff right now...

...

...

HOW IS ANYONE SUPPOSED TO BAKE ANYTHING WELL IF THEY DON'T HAVE A FLUFFY APRON????!!

I think I'm due on.

HOW the heck am I supposed to steampunk-ify a pair of army green overalls (at least two sizes too big!!) without the use of cogs.

I'm stitching a blanket backpack for next time I go down south, I'm sure I'll add in WIP photo's at SOME stage lol

Stuff I like this month:

+ Daniel
+ Emilie Autumn - Thank God I'm Pretty, Marry Me and Miss Lucy Had some Leeches
+ Memories (Baggeridge)
+ Sleeping in late in the morning
+ sewing stuff
+ writing stories with my boyfriend
+ My pumpkind

Stuff I don't like:
+How difficult LJ is to play with sometimes :s
+ Uncertainty about my future.
+ Missing Daniel so much I HURT
+ Housework (i.e. sorting out the shed, putting up wallpaper, putty-ing the windows, laying the darn fire! etc)
+ Forgetting important things
+ Not knowing stuff
and, as always.
+ Writers god damn block <_<
 

Dear You

I was four years old when I realized happily ever after didn't exist. Four years old. Does that seem a little young to you? Yeah. Me too. I was kidnapped by the way. By my own Father. He was...a little broken, you see, strange in the head. Literally. But anyway. He took me from safety, from my home and left me with his step-wife. I know the word 'evil' is thrown around a lot these days, its a word that's sort of lost its shine, but this woman, this female, she was evil.

I won't detail what she did to me or what she ignored her 'friends' doing. It's not really important.

Some nights I used to pray. Curling up wherever I was left. I prayed hard to God. I thought he wasn't listening. So I prayed to the Blue Fairy and Flora, Fauna and Merriweather and all the nice little fairies and pixies from my books to come and save me. No one came. I was four years old and I still remember my own heart breaking.

Of course someone came for me eventually, my Grandfather I think and I was taken home. My mom had re-married a couple of years after leaving my Father and my step-dad had been shaken to the core by what had happened to me, he couldn't have done anything to save me and I was a changed little girl. I wouldn't play with him any more, I barely spoke, I rejected my books for the lies they told me. He started to drink. Then he started to beat my mother. Needless to say we fled in the middle of the night, two lost souls slipping between the shadows.

So the years rolled on. I grew up, loud and brash though inside I'm quiet and shy. I returned to my books eventually, those I could forgive. I saw my step-father on weekends, looked after him when he was incapable, didn't ask anyone for help, not even my mother. I went to school, had my first kiss, got zits, did all those embarrassing things that most teenagers do and then my mom got sick. She actually died on the table, they brought her back, but she was sick after for years. I had two ill parents and I didn't ask for help.

Years rolled on, my dad moved to France...I was relieved and hurt in the weirdest way. Relieved because I was still young and I could stop having to be older and hurt because, well, didn't it mean anything? All that time spent looking after him? Anyway.

What's happening now? Mom's fighting breast cancer at the moment and winning. I can't begin to tell you how proud I am of her. As for me? I've just finished a course in fashion and I'm seeing this doctor, Dr Jack. He told me that I should share my little story with people, to give them hope.

Hope is a wonderful, bright but brittle creature, in my opinion but you can hold it, inside you safe and warm, whilst all around you is falling apart. When your eyes hurt from crying so much, when your throat hurts from screaming, when you're bleeding and hurting, you turn that beautiful face of yours towards the future, you dream, you listen to other peoples dreams too because other souls are hurting just as much as you at times, you listen and you watch and most importantly of all you Hope. Hope will give you strength when you don't believe you can go on, hope will help you regain faith again and Hope will help you work to get what you want. Hope is a miracle and only a couple of steps away from Love and we all know how fabulous that is.

So. Even though we've never met and probably never will (I don't get out much) just know that I hold a great deal of Hope for you, even if it's too dark for you to hold it yourself.

So.
With Hope.
Rats.

THEN THERE WAS WIRELESS INTERNET! I'M BACK MUWAHAHAHAHHAHAAHAHAAAAAAAAR!!!

I'm gonna see DANIEL hell YEAH!!

Stuff I like this month:

+ DANIEL!
+ Dresses
+ Being kissed by someone who knows what they're doing.
+ That warm fuzzy feeling you get when hanging around with friends
+ Making folk laugh
+ Sunrises
+ Stockings
+ Severus Snape

Stuff I don't like:
+  Mom being so down
+Waiting

HE IS SO FRICKEN PERFECT!

What's happened to me? A few weeks ago I was this angsty, bitter, cynical human beings all of a sudden I'm disgustingly soppy! I understand the lyrics to love songs! What the heck is going on?!

I'M EVEN TRYING NOT TO SWEAR BECAUSE HE DOESN'T LIKE IT!!!

I'm turning into a disney princess. A rounded disney princess but still. Honestly. Please, I beg you, if I start singing with small fluffy animals please shoot me.

(But seriously, he really is perfect, intelligent, funny, wonderfully warm, perfect at kissing, perfect at everything really. Oh and he's probably the sexiest person on the planet BAR NONE! - sorry Jason Isaacs, Alan Rickman and Johnney Depp *sighs*)

*cough* Someone would think I was proud of myself...anyway. After much much searching I finally came up with this recipie ALL ON MY OWN! For mom, because she can't really taste anything at the minute I wanted to come up with something that would be like POW on the tastebuds, y'know? Seriously, I hate blowing my own trumpet (or saxamaphone, whatever) but this is really REALLY yummy :) Not for the delicate of palette!

Sticky 'n' Spicy chicken with Sweet Noodles

Ingredients

Olive oil

Approx 6 Chicken fillets cut into bite size pieces [alternatively you can use Quorn as a vegetarian option]

1 and a half tsps lemon grass

Approx 4 oz plain flour

Zest and juice of 2 oranges

1 and a half tsps of chilli powder

Half a tsp of chilli flakes

Finely chopped carrots, spring onions, peppers (green best), baby corn and mangetout

Approx 5 fl oz rice vinegar

Aprox 5oz of castor sugar

4 tbsps soy sauce (I find dark best because of it's stronger flavour)

About an inch and a half of fresh ginger/four or five tsps of ground ginger (this can vary according to taste)

How too: -

1) Cover the chicken pieces in a little oil and set aside for a moment.

2) In a seperate bowl mix the flour, half a tsp of the chilli powder, all the lemongrass and the orange zest. Pour the flour mix over the chicken pieces and stir it all with your hands to coat the chicken pieces. Get stuck in! Fry the coated chicken pieces until the meat is sealed.

3) Set a pan of water to boil - add the juice of your oranges and a small bit of your ginger.

4) Whilst your waiting for your water to boil stick your rice wine vinegar, castor sugar and soy sauce into a VERY hot pan/wok along with the rest of your ginger, the remaining tsp of chilli powder and all the chilli flakes. Let the bugger boil for about 3-5 minutes

5) Chuck the sealed chicken pieces into the sauce and stir fry for about 3-5 minutes (the sauce should be quite sticky at this point and clinging to the chickeny bits), then chick in your chopped veggies and the mangetout and stir for about 1-2 mins. Stick the noodles in the boiling water and cook for as long as the manufacturer instructs.

6) Serve as you like it -either with noodles, sauce and chicken bits or separate :) )